I noticed yesterday that I was feeling harried about having too much to do even though I didn’t.
It dawned on me that this feeling was a habitual way of being, disconnected from circumstances. How much of my life is like this?
Is it because I get stuck in a too busy mindset?
Do I over-commit to sustain this habit?
Did this uncomfortable state become my comfort zone?
I was thinking about a friend who frequently fails to keep commitments.
He always apologizes and feels bad about it.
But, he does not do anything about it.
As if feeling guilty enough makes it ok.
I do this with myself sometimes.
I make more commitments to myself than I can reasonably complete.
Then I feel guilty about not getting everything done. Harried.
Overcommit. Feel Guilty. Repeat.
Positive No for me may look like putting fewer items in my ‘This Week’ list.
/Dub