Performance Journaling has been a good practice for me as its really helped me to immediately dial into my FISBE and shake myself out of whatever state I’m in and recalibrate myself. The process has become semi-automatic for me to the point where I don’t write it down but in reflection feel like I accomplished its purpose.

I find that 90% of my time I am falling into Victim mode. I’ve never been much of a persecutor as I have never been effective of getting things done that way. In reflection to the last few years I use to be a Rescuer (while playing Victim) but that led to be overworked so much that I have learned my lesson enough times on how that role makes me feel.

I have not been able to shake Victim. It’s not overly debilitating for me as the performance journaling process allows me to realize what role I am playing and to become a Creator. It’s mostly the voices in my head “Why didn’t they do this? I was very specific and received committed action.” “Now I have to overcome all this additional stress.” “This problem is a product of the environment that we are in - why can’t this just happen more easily.”

My thoughts rarely turn into actions and I truly believe I get back to the nuts and bolts of making a scenario better. It’s the trigger that upsets me. It’s okay for things not to go correctly right away, they rarely do. I need to immediately treat obstacles as part of the process and not something that is out to make my life harder.

Thanks,

Jake